Personal growth.

Looking past the history with your ex so that you can help him navigate his battle with cancer.

During and after Ethan’s battle, I had always said that I wouldn’t wish cancer on my worst enemy. At the time, my ex was that person, but no one, and I mean no one, deserves cancer.

I was so angry with him for years. One day, I decided I didn’t want to be angry anymore, and just like that, I wasn’t. I deserved the gift of peace, so I took it for myself.

If you had asked me back then, I’m not sure I could’ve or would’ve shown up for him. There was a lot of bitterness on both sides.

Today, I am present for my ex-husband and the father of my children. I want to help so that he worries only about getting through cancer and surviving, not only for himself but for our other children.

Please send him your prayers and good thoughts. He needs them.

As for me, I know Freyr has blessed me with peace. I wasn't certain that I had the ability to handle this. Ethan's battle was so heavy and his loss, even heavier.

There are a lot of flashbacks happening right now, but none of them feel like fresh cuts. This is a good thing. My wounds are scarred, at long last.